Posted by daisym on June 16, 2005, at 14:09:39
In reply to Re: I'm NOT in love with my therapist » Daisym, posted by cricket on June 16, 2005, at 12:22:09
When "little daisy" gets out, sometimes she is REALLY out. It sounds so weird to someone who hasn't experienced this so I hesitate to write this but I will...
I'm having a bad week, and this morning has been very tough. I called in to my therapist to say, "I can't get dressed, I can't go to work, I can't...I can't...I can't..."
He said, "who can't?" And we talked about grief and the inner voices that are soo upset still by the weekend. His opinion is that I'm holding it all in, very tightly, which is why I now can't function and can only expend energy to hold it in. He wants me to let little daisy talk. He wants me to let her write and to bring her writings to today's session. And, he made it clear that he wants to hear from HER, unedited, tears and all. The other prescription from him was "fall apart -- give yourself today and tomorrow off work and just fall apart. I'll be here if it gets to be too much but I think you need to give in to this. Little Daisy needs you to give in to this."
I could feel her talking back to him already and I don't want to fall apart. But I'm not controlling her very well at the moment and SHE is really ready to rage at all of it. She *wants* to talk in session today, she is ready and I suspect that unless something comes up big in the next two hours, she is going to be out of my control in there, at least initially.
I guess that this is a long way of saying, yes, this happens to me. I'm glad you feel the support I'm trying to send your way.
Hugs from "us" :)
Daisy
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