Posted by rainbowbrite on June 6, 2005, at 15:30:31
In reply to Re: Just curious about therapy » rainbowbrite, posted by fallsfall on June 6, 2005, at 15:08:22
>>When I think of your name I see the "rainbow" part of it, so it surprised me that you shortened "rainbowbrite" to "rain", not "rainbow"...
you know I dont know why it got shortened....I think fallen started calling me that....and then it stuck lol
thanks falls, I think i do need baby steps. im not sure that I *need* therapy I just think I must need it, if that makes sense. I must need something but it is hard.
If you get me in a position to talk about stuff I generally will but I am very very emotionally detached and it just flows out like its nothing...you know..like the most depressing thing I can kinda brush off as nothing. Lets just say Im not comfortable with sad emotions. Even in others. See I am even having a difficult time writing this with a 'serious' tone.
And recently I got sad news and it totally freaked me out...I was driving and I had to blare the music and start belting out the song because it hurt so much and I didnt want to think about it...so I think I am really uncomfortable with pain.
But maybe that is where I should start, thinking about why I have such a hard time sitting with uncomfortable feelings ..icky>>What kind of therapy were you doing? How long?
some sort of talk therapy, I would say it was probably was more cbt it lasted 6 mths. But I did go under duress when I was younger for awhile...but I dont do anything well when I dont want to do it....see at that point Id rather dodge the issue and hmmm hide behind cars after being dropped off to not have to go in :-)
But the 6mths was an honest as much as I could do try...It was when I started posting here. I just couldnt relate to anything anyone sai dreally and I wanted to. Then I thought that maybe i just wasnt meant for it and Id solve my own problems in time. but Im not so sure Im that talented :-)
Thanks
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