Posted by pinkeye on May 10, 2005, at 19:43:05
In reply to Zero Feelings (Possible Trigger), posted by cricket on May 10, 2005, at 16:50:46
I am really sorry to hear that. That must have been so very bad for you.
Sometimes, I think when a person is too bad to us, or our feelings hurt us too much, we kind of become totally indifferent - and become numb, or dissociate or block things. And that is a protective mechanism that God has given us. No wonder why you don't feel anything. And quite rightfully so. If I were in your position, I would have been the same. You are not the sociopath. The very fact that you are going to therapy, and tyring to understand and coming and writing on this board, and seeking help, speaks a lot to your goodness. Actually I am amazed that you have turned out with so much of goodness after all that. I am truly amazed.
Hang in there, and I know it is not possible to revert the situation now, but for all you know, God might have some plans for you.. He might send you a person who will love you - more than you ever wanted to be loved in life and that will make it all worthwhile. Maybe your husband or maybe your kid, or maybe someone else, will see you for what you are, and will acknowledge and love you. And those are the moments that you would be looking forwards, and you need to prepare yourself to be worthy of such a person when the time comes.
Take care, and hugs,
Pinkeye
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