Posted by pinkeye on May 4, 2005, at 22:01:45
In reply to question for psycho-babblers (possible trigger), posted by whirlpool on May 1, 2005, at 15:21:38
Anyway, I just realized that my context switching algorithm is little corrupted as well. It doesn't switch contexts as efficiently it should.
I don't seem to be able to concentrate too much on my work. Babble and this kind of healing is taking more of my interest now than my work does.
It feels guilty.. but then part of me feels that I can afford to not concentrate on work and get lousy reviews for a year.. but this is more important to me. Otherwise even if I earn tons of money, if I am not emotionally happy, what is the use?
So I think it does lead to regressions, and anxiety and more stuff out and it is hard to kind of do it both (this kind of therapy stuff) and work/school at the same time.
But many times, it probably helps to deal with stuff like this early on in your life, so when you are 70, you don't look back and say "what a waste", because when you are 70 and have run the rat race and reached the cliff, you realize that there is nothing after the cliff - that all you got is to die, and it makes you feel so bad that all along you had been running for a career and school and money and didn't stop to look at whether you are really happy doing what you are doing.
I did that for so many years now, but thankfully I stopped doing it a couple of years ago - thanks to my ex T.
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