Posted by Susan47 on March 17, 2005, at 10:42:32
In reply to Re: A form of dissociation I hate. I'm so weird., posted by sunny10 on March 17, 2005, at 10:31:30
This "refusal to encode".. I've done it deliberately for years, knowing yet not knowing I was doing it but it was automatic, a filter that was subconscious but in the end I don't think it was helpful to do that for the last thirty years, it made me dysfunctional. Not totally, but to a great extent. For the last year I've been very aware of my ability to do this and I've tried not to, for the most part, but I know it still happens, and it's frustrating when it does. It's the type of thing that leaves my ex-T, I'm sure, shaking his head, wondering "Now where'd she get THAT impression?" ... it's a self-protective device that was necessary for survival I guess, but now it just gets in the way, for me.
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