Posted by Skittles on March 16, 2005, at 13:25:56
The past few days have been really horrible for me. I am absolutely heartbroken over this falling out with my therapist. I feel like she has died. Or that I have. I'm not sure which. I can't sleep much at all. I wake up crying multiple times each night after having some kind of dream that involves seeing her and being completely ignored or having her refuse to look at me as she tells me to go away.
At this point, I simply want her to take me back. I'm trying to make some changes - showering, staying out of bed, doing things like reading, etc. But I'm actually feeling worse. I was spending my days inside my head and numb, these changes leave me to sit with the yucky emotions and I don't have a T to talk to about it. I'm also thinking that I don't care if she admits her part in this. Maybe she doesn't have a part. Maybe it was all me. I don't know. Should it matter?
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thread:471720
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