Posted by fallsfall on March 12, 2005, at 21:36:58
In reply to off one med....SI ocd/urge? * *trigger**, posted by B2chica on March 12, 2005, at 11:59:35
There was a time a couple of years ago when I found myself in the process of SIing (in a more serious way than my normal picking). Literally, I had no thought to do this thing (ever in the past), and it was one of the most impulsive things I have ever done. Scared the pants off of me! Sent me to the hospital because I was scared that I was no longer in control.
After much discussion at the hospital, we figured out what my biggest problem was. And we figured out that there was a connection between the problem and the situation where I SI'd. I hadn't seen the connection, so the SI seemed completely random to me. I felt much better when I could see that there was a connection, so I could at least understand why I would be so distraught at that time.
Am I making any sense?
The bottom line is that what you described sounded a bit like my incident. And you say that something popped into your head just before that. Based on my experience, a momentary "pop into your head" is enough - in my case the "pop" was so subtle that I didn't even know it had happened!
Please try to talk with your therapist about the issue that popped into your head.
Good luck!!
P.S. If I didn't make any sense, Babblemail me and I'll give you more of the particulars so it will make sense. I don't want to describe the SI on the board...
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