Posted by 10derHeart on March 7, 2005, at 22:32:03
In reply to What I miss, posted by pinkeye on March 7, 2005, at 19:06:59
Yeah, connection and emotional intimacy. Those things are just so very, very huge.
I don't have them with my dearest best friend of many years.
Or with any "newer" friends.
No significant other for a loooong time...but there's still a glimmer of hope, God willing.
There was potential, I believe, with my mom, who was quite sensitive and intuitive. But she died when I was 19. My dad is a great man, but emotional intimacy - never in a million years.
No siblings.
My grown daughter comes close. But she is 2000 miles away. When we're together a lot and tuned in, though - it's lovely. But even so....with her, it's more a fun, silly, knowing each other so well thing with not that much gentleness or...I don't know. I'm selling her short - she's kind and caring, but...
Nothing and no one comes close to old T. Just to sit there and not be uncomfortable. To feel something tangible between us in the room, out of something that had to be intangible, actually. Spirituality. Sincere warmth. Incredible waves of safety. Love, even. Yup. Hate to say, but nothing on this earth has come close since. I suppose I shouldn't expect it.
My cat licks my face when I cry. Does that count? ;-)
Oh, this is a self-indulgent night for me. Sorry pinkeye, I meant to say I totally agreed and understood your meaning....
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