Posted by Susan47 on March 2, 2005, at 15:06:09
In reply to Building Trust, posted by Susan47 on March 2, 2005, at 14:28:24
I've played with myself, because I knew it would be beneficial. What I did was (head games are not always bad, by the way) I pretended, I gave myself the belief that he was reading all my posts. Or that there was the possibility he was doing that. And because I did that, and I went so far as to print off posts and bring them to him, I'll bet he has a dozen little snippets there that I mailed off at one time or another, because I did that I felt I had to be as honest as I could be with everything I said, and I felt motivated, really motivated, because I believed he was a good person. And today when I said he was a good person the new doctor wholeheartedly agreed, which is nice, but kind of painful too, because I still envy that T's wife her lovely position. I have to talk to the new T about that. Perhaps she can put it into perspective for me without squashing my sexual feelings. I need to feel sexual about myself, I need to feel that way so I don't cloak myself and ruin any chance of sexual fulfillment that I might still have.
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