Posted by Susan47 on March 2, 2005, at 14:28:24
In reply to And Part of the Mystery Is Solved, posted by Susan47 on March 2, 2005, at 12:52:33
in therapy, it's so important.
I hope I've helped to build trust on both sides of the fence today, her with me and me with her. She knows how to ask the difficult questions, the ones I have to respond to no matter how much I don't want to, because if I don't she won't see me anymore, I'm sure of that. I'm so scared of how much my ex-T must hate me that I'm afraid to have her talk to him. I think he's going to be really judgemental, I mean, who wouldn't be completely grossed out by someone like me, so desperate and needy. I remember I was grossed out when it happened to me, therapists are no different from anybody else. I wish I were just projecting, but sadly, I am correct here, in this. It just makes a person feel so desperate, you know, to be so reviled.
It's like I raped MYSELF, you know. It's like a rape of me. Me, I raped myself in this relationship. Another interesting concept brought to you straight from the lap of a person who's completely f*cked up.
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