Posted by shrinking violet on February 22, 2005, at 16:56:50
In reply to I can't take anymore, I'm done with therapy, posted by shrinking violet on February 18, 2005, at 11:12:11
I'm sorry I keep beating this thread to death. I'm just at a loss as to what to do, and why I'm reacting this way.
I know last session wasn't that horrible.....there wasn't anything about it that should have caused the reaction it did. And if I had/have any question about my T's feelings for me and vice versa, I could just ask her. She knows full well already that I don't fully believe she "cares" for me, etc, so it wouldn't be anything new.
She emailed me today and said I have to see her "no less than every two weeks" starting next week. So, I managed to get less time with her if I want it (instead of weekly, as before), but I'm not sure what to do. Part of me wants to leave it the way it is, and just go there next week because I have to, and sit there and glare at her and drive her nuts wondering what the heck is going on. Or, I could *gulp* email her back and tell her the truth....tell her I'm not sure what happened last session or why these feelings got triggered and maybe it's best if I see her this week and try to air it out in some way since it'll drive me nuts sitting with it for yet another week -- Although then I'd have to then write to her and try to explain my feelings, and send it to her ahead of time....and what would I say? That it's all BS, all of it, that her telling me now of her boyfriend after knowing her for two years is throwing me into a tizzy, that I don't feel like I can open up to her as a T at all, that any little foundation we had as a client/T has been shattered....and that I'm not even sure why?
Maybe it would be easier on both of us to just glare at each other for the rest of the semester......
I don't know what to do. I'm so tired of this.....
Help? :-(
SV
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