Posted by Susan47 on February 22, 2005, at 10:37:20
In reply to Re: Two Steps Forward, One Back » Susan47, posted by TamaraJ on February 22, 2005, at 10:28:45
Hah! I wish it *were* sex I was talking about. A one-night stand with condom would've been smarter than what I did. As long as there was no kissing. Kissing can transmit a lot of bad, bad things. Man, it's easier just to be celibate and lonely.
And making stupid dumb idiotic phone calls to somebody who's going to feel really weird about having to pick them up.
Oh see now, I can't hate myself. I have to go on, because this is a day I have to live, and live it well, the best I can.
If only I could forget, but then if I forget I might do it again. So I can't forget, which is what I've been doing for so long. I have to remember, so that I can remember not to do it again.
I love you Susan. You're a nice, a good person. You have a lot of spirit. You've had a hard time with people in your life, you never did learn how to make a connection. But you're learning now. And it's not your fault that you couldn't make a connection with this particular person, this t you had, because you didn't really understand what that relationship was supposed to be like. You never understood relationship, period. But you're learning, now.
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