Posted by pinkeye on February 21, 2005, at 15:49:36
In reply to Re: therapists and washing machines » pinkeye, posted by Susan47 on February 21, 2005, at 15:09:19
ISn't it amazing to you how we both understand each other so perfectly well? I am quite surprised at how capable you are at putting into words exactly what I am.
What you have said about knowing everything in my head but the core being hasn't absorbed it fully is perfect. I have always believed that myself too. And I am trying to make my core absorb it from my head :-). That is the last link that is still missing in the picture, and I have been really trying to figure out how to get that link set right. Once I figure that out, I will be able to make that final leap. But that link is so hard to set right.But hang in there yourself.. Preserve what you have got in the past few days yourself and remember these moments in the days when you feel completely out of yourself. But, while you work on yourself being free and one with yourself, and happy, in the meantime, try to live well with what you have got. Stop being destructive now. If you can stop using all this drugs. Work on that. Don't wait to get everything compeltely correct before you start making progress in your life. There might never be a full Susan - if you can udnerstand what I mean. But you can make the best out of whatever % of Susan you got at any point in life.
That attitude saved me. While I always struggled, failed, got depressed, angry, I tried to not compromise (atleast to a good extent) on living well. I ended up doing well in career, to a good extent in other areas.. I never got into too much of self destruction - I always stopped one step short of it. I always had a commitment to help myself - and that saved me. If you can make that commitment to yourself, it will save you too.
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