Posted by Pfinstegg on February 11, 2005, at 21:24:10
In reply to Long answer - triggers » Pfinstegg, posted by daisym on February 11, 2005, at 20:48:57
Not too long at all. About the implicit memories, they come out as sudden outbursts or statements to my analyst- about the abuse- that I never know I'm going to make. There are all sorts of flashbacks- like lightning, and very quickly over. There are LOTS of body memories. It doesn't feel exactly like 'normal" memory, yet it's coming more and more, and is starting to seem more like regular memory- it has always felt like it was really true. It was just astonishing, because I had repressed the whole thing totally until I started analysis, and I'd made other therapy attempts without a glimpse of this. The art therapy is wonderful. as it's a bit easier to draw the memories, though talking is getting easier, too. And with the analyst and art therapist, I feel like I have a completely new, loving mother and father...so nice.
In the book, it spoke about how important it was to relive and process the traumas with as much detail and feeling as possible. It sounds like you've really gotten to the point where you are able to do that. That must feel so good; at least, I hope it does.
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