Posted by Susan47 on January 28, 2005, at 22:56:52
In reply to My Therapist=not a creative thinker, posted by Susan47 on January 28, 2005, at 22:24:51
Last week I wrote my ex-T a letter saying my phone calls were an addiction. And that was correct, and I realize what I've always known, is that sometimes it was addiction (his voice, it calmed and soothed me and made me feel loved and cared for, like a mommy, okay I can accept that) and sometimes it was just necessary, like a dream is necessary, a working-out of psychoses. He didn't know how to help me. He just didn't know how. G*d that hurts, that hurts so much. Why didn't he admit that, admit defeat, say it to me, I'm sorry this is too much for me you're too disordered and I don't know how to deal with it .. I'll tell you why, it's because he was afraid of hurting me even more, because he knows I have zippo self-confidence when it comes to love, and he knew I was in love with him. That's why.
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