Posted by Susan47 on January 28, 2005, at 21:27:51
In reply to Adagrace, this is what you did, now I know why, posted by Susan47 on January 28, 2005, at 20:33:54
THIS Sort of shite is EXACTLY what I used to do to my therapist, on his answering machine, it's exactly the same, it's stuff coming out because it has to and he dropped me because he couldn't take it anymore.
I know I should probably be angry with him, but I don't know how. Should I be? He's allowed me to do that for a long time, making phone calls, but he only did it to help me, he only did it thinking that eventually I'd be able to trust him enough to do it all there, in front of him, to do it within session times so he could get paid for it and he could talk back to the crazy me when she came up, he was just trying to help hoping that I'd get better somehow by seeing him but what he didn't understand and what I didn't understand was I wasn't ever committed to being well, I didn't want to let go of the defenses because they protected me.
And now he's gone, he's a quiet man who makes no effort to go outside his shell and he was just the wrong person to help me because he's too frightened. And I always knew I frightened him.
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