Posted by mair on January 26, 2005, at 15:46:10
In reply to Re: My therapist joined me here at Babble today. » mair, posted by Dinah on January 25, 2005, at 22:24:12
Dinah - it's not that I don't talk about Babble; it's just that I don't talk about it with any detail supplied. My T knows I come here (she doesn't know the name of the site); she knows that there is good and bad in my coming here; we've discussed both the good and the bad. Lately (yesterday) she was interested to know why I've suddenly come back and started actively posting after having been away for awhile.
I usually don't mind reading something I've written so long as I'm not reading it out loud. I don't like the sound of my own voice, in fact I really don't like to hear my recorded voice. I also don't like having my words read back to me. And sometimes (lots of times) I don't like what I've posted, after I've already posted it.
I just think I'd be very uncomfortable having my T read something I've written here even if it isn't about her.
Of course my reticence may also explain why after 6 years of seeing her, I still have trouble feeling a connection to her. I'm really pretty guarded and I tend to parcel out information sparingly.
It's got to be pretty aggravating for her. She did say something in the last session about how hard it is for her to tell if I'm having an emotional reaction to something she's saying because I'm so composed externally.
Mair
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