Posted by Dinah on January 25, 2005, at 19:57:30
Sort of at least.
I arrived at my appointment really mad at myself for forgetting the post that was supposed to be the subject of today's session. (Freudian forgetting?) I hinted rather broadly and he offered to let me use his computer and printer. I made a big deal out of trusting him not to return here. He responded by promising, and by telling me that he was trusting me with his computer. :) He sort of looked halfway as I came here and found the post, but he promised he could only see that there were words, he couldn't read them. Which was just as well, because I noticed some headers I prefer he not see. I guess he wanted to make sure I wasn't at hotguys.com or something.
Overall, I figure it was one of those good boundary crossings.
In the end, the post was only a springboard to a discussion that left me totally spaced out and half asleep. I slept in the car, then managed to drive home reasonably safely and sleep again. It strikes me as very odd to go to therapy because I'm afraid I will fail at my job, end up discussing why I might be sabotaging myself at work, and bringing up such strong feelings that I end up incapacitated for the day. I'm still groggy and thick.
Maybe I'd better not investigate why I'm behind in my work until I catch up with it.
And he's mainly interested in what happened and why it happened. I suppose so that I can learn to prevent it happening. At least he saw why I have trouble working. He admitted that working in the condition I was in would be pretty much impossible.
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