Posted by rubenstein on January 12, 2005, at 9:57:10
I am having a really hard time lately. I have this big audition for a doctoral program on Friday and I feel that I have way to much personal investment in it. I can't seem to process what I would do if I don't get in, which is certainly a possibility. I have put off all of my suicidal thinking until this audition is over and here it is....Friday....and I feel so lost. I've talked to my T about this and he is worried and scheduled another appointment with me for Thursday, then he wants me to go to walk-ins with another therapist on Friday because he will be gone. I know I should be with people but I just want to be alone after all of this. I also deal with SI and have been pretty good about it lately, but how can I get through this week without it. I wish I wasn't such a perfecitonist. It is easy to see the inadequacies in your thinking but hard to feel differntly about yourself. I guess that is waht therapy is for. Sorry for the rant, just needed to vent I guess.
rubenstein
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