Posted by lonelygal on January 10, 2005, at 18:26:05
In reply to Re: i want to die. » lonelygal, posted by rainbowbrite on January 10, 2005, at 18:15:07
i guess i should say something like that in a message to her... i just feel dumb b/c i feel like i have sort of lost all faith in her, even if not for a really good reason... and if i asked to meet with her now, like say i really need to see someone, i woudl feel even more dumb and embarassed and mad at myself if i show up and don't talk (which is what i tend to do always when i'm uncomfortable). like i lied and don't need to see her.
and if i'm honest with myself, i am really thinking how could she help me anyways? i want something to change now or i am going to have a very hard time trying to make it. and what can a stranger really do for someone in a 50 minute appointment. i know i'm being very cynical, sorry if i'm offending anyone. i'm just not in a good mood.
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