Posted by vwoolf on January 1, 2005, at 13:11:24
In reply to Re: Forever therapy - Spoke to my therapist, posted by Dinah on January 1, 2005, at 9:23:22
Dinah, you are just like me in this. Nobody, but nobody outside Babble knows how often I see my therapist. The truth is, to my embarrassment, I see her three times a week. My husband thinks I go once every second week. Because I pay for it all out of my pocket (my medical insurance only covers hospital care) she has started only charging me for twice a week, which makes it even more difficult to justify to myself. She says it is her fault for encouraging my dependency, so she won't charge for the third session, but she is not sure how long we can go on like this. The trouble is, I simply fall to pieces without therapy. As far as I am concerned, it will have to be forever therapy, or at least that is the only way I can see it at the moment. Maybe in future things will change, but at the moment I can't even think along those lines.
Of course nobody would understand this - even on Babble this kind of dependency is met with some scepticism. In the outside world, I shudder to think what the reaction would be if I were to admit to this.
Btw, My T is also highly sensitive and responsive to my needs. She has strict boundaries, and would be very careful of embarrassing me by openly recognising me outside her rooms. She is an old friend of a relative of mine, but has cut off all contact with him since she discovered our connection - I feel guilty about this, but I really appreciate her discretion.
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