Posted by 10derheart on December 30, 2004, at 23:41:56
In reply to Missing my T :-(, posted by messadivoce on December 30, 2004, at 23:10:24
Hi Voce,
I know. It's so hard. I have no magic or probably anything new, but I see the sadness in your writing. All I can say is try to imagine his voice you know so well if you can, if it helps. I know with me the things that help, end up hurting, too, sometimes. Remember your pain is due to such a great depth of caring, and that is quite a rare and beautiful gift. Hang on to the picture and rock for dear life. Our memories do go through some changes, mellow, fade, but I'll bet you won't lose as much as you think. I'd be scared, too, but no one can ever take away what you had.
It sounds hopeful you're even able to miss seeing your new T. a little bit. Knowing my situation (easier than yours by far, I know) please believe me I *get* that part. I'm doing better than well with T2. But he is not T1, and we've had to talk about T1. And it hurts like he**. I guess it's a grieving process that has to run it's own course.
Or so T1 has told me. Oops, am I still thinking of him? Yup.You hang in there, heck, you have to - I need you and your wonderful posts when I'm losing it.. :)
((Voce)) - 10der
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