Posted by littleone on December 28, 2004, at 15:42:05
In reply to how did you define your therapy goals?, posted by ghost on December 26, 2004, at 17:58:44
I first went to therapy because I just fell apart after witnessing a car accident. So my goal was to get over that.
But then I kind of introduced the fact that no one likes me. I guess my goal was I wanted to know why that was and to fix it/me.
Then I got really scared about the cutting (and how addictive it was) and my thoughts about s.
My current T addressed the cutting and s thoughts firstly. But I guess I'm kind of too scr*wed up underneath for him to be able to fix the accident and not liking me stuff. So we'd been sorting out family stuff.
But to be honest, I don't think any of them are his current goal. I think he kind of talks a little about all this stuff, but doesn't go too deep. I think he's trying to get me to attach to him and trust him and open up by talking rather than just by writing. I have a feeling things are all in a kind of holding pattern until I can do that. But I haven't asked him if that's right or not. I've never even come close to opening up and talking to someone *ever* in my life. It just feels impossible. And you can't maintain a holding pattern forever. Eventually you'll run out of fuel.
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