Posted by just plain jane on December 27, 2004, at 19:52:32
In reply to How have things changed since last Christmas, posted by vwoolf on December 23, 2004, at 13:08:07
I am no longer living in the home of a dear, but emotionally abusive man. I have moved back to my own home and from that experience learned I do not belong under anyone else's roof. I am psychologically unable to tolerate others' controlling behavior. And glad to know it and glad for it. I put up with so much cr@p from so many people all my life that I had "WELCOME, ANYTIME" imprinted on my forehead.
My son and I have forged a friendship that transcends the parent-child relationship. It helps that I am still, as he says, "an eighteen year old guy" in my head, in some ways.
I am indeed still the youthful tomboy vulgar smart@ss at times. (Like, when I am awake). And I can accept that I will never think like a "normal" woman.
That said, I can also accept that, for the foreseeable future, a romantic relationship is a non-concern. Oh, I do love the freedom of the realization that I do NOT have to fulfill some stupid "requirement" of society by being involved with someone.
I no longer feel compelled to explain or defend myself with my family, or anyone else, about anything. I know now that a) they won't get it, and b) they won't care anyway. Such a relief to toss that one out the window.
My financial situation has improved times three and is now secure. I am driving a four year old mint condition vehicle, as opposed to the mid-'80s rustbuckets I've had for the past ten years. I was able to acquire land that i have dreamed of all my life and will be able to afford fencing and equipment to manage it. And so much more on that subject it's scary at times, having never been materialistically inclined in the least.
Ok, I could go on, but Rebecca of Sunnybrook Farms has been far overrated.
just plain jane
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