Posted by B2Chica on December 23, 2004, at 12:55:24
In reply to I know and understand. » B2Chica, posted by Poet on December 22, 2004, at 19:09:43
you all are so wonderful. i think somehow just saying those things to you all helped. i didn't cry at all yesterday or today, or the ruminating thoughts of suicide. i'm still feeling down but not NEAR what i was. maybe having the date, but maybe just saying it too. (i even wrapped a couple gifts today.)
Everything is still SO overwhelming so i just take it one thing at a time. it just seems like there is SO Much that i'm responsible for and can't do it. i am however glad i have some time off work. that would just add So much more...maybe that's been part of the problem too.i think...i KNOW that having you all here and just listening and giving feedback helps SOO MUCH.
it was nice to not be judged (or thought of like a psychotic freak) about having that 'date', and even to hear others have it (though i want ALL of you to pass your date as well!)
but there is something to that. and the promise will take away the impulsiveness that i seem to have.i want to call my pdoc but i would have to paige him, and since he said he didn't normally give out his paiger to px, well, i've just used it so much that i don't want to abuse it. it's not an emergency. but i might call his office and just leave a message saying i want to talk about an AD.
i'll try to post next week.
i Hope EVERYONE here has a 'well' holiday.
I Can't thank you enough.b2c.
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