Posted by Smeegle on December 19, 2004, at 23:04:12
In reply to Re: Is there really a point? What's the payoff? » Smeegle, posted by Dinah on December 12, 2004, at 14:16:04
I made it through final! One stressor out of the way. Have been in contact with pdoc. He is aware of my ambivalence and struggle that I have internally.
I try not to allow myself to dwell, but at times my brain doesn't want to cooperate in steering my thoughts more productively. For me anyhow, it's largely a chemical imbalance. A little tweak of the meds and I am usually able to clear my thoughts a little better.
I will continue to look for some type of passion or purpose in my life. Some type of fulfillment. Anything to not feel so empty and that life is a HUGE waste of time. I don't feel that I am in any imminent danger of making any rash decisions at this point. I have zero expectations for the holidays so there will be no disappointments. It will be what I make of it. Nothing more, nothing less.
Smeegs
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