Posted by fallsfall on December 13, 2004, at 15:29:47
In reply to I want to want to be better (*trigger*), posted by cubic_me on December 13, 2004, at 10:51:16
>>>Maybe I don't want to get better because it will be a scary world out there. My closest friendships have formed with other people who I can talk to about depression etc, mostly because they have been through it themselves
I could have written this paragraph (in fact, I could still write it). I am addicted to depression. But my therapy *is* starting to make a difference. I actually *do* want to feel better. I'm not sure how to make it happen, but I *do* want to feel better. I've been depressed for almost 10 years. CBT helped a little in the beginning, but now I go 3X/week for Psychodynamic therapy. It is incredibly hard (see my post today), and frustrating. But overall, I can see that it is making a difference (I've been seeing this guy for 1 1/2 years). For me, the difference has been in dealing with my unconscious wishes and fears - those are what has been getting in my way.
Cubic_me, it *is* possible to want to be better. But, I'm guessing that you are like me in that, not every therapy will work for you.
Don't give up. A life is a terrible thing to waste.
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