Posted by cubic_me on December 13, 2004, at 10:51:16
When I don't feel so depressed, I don't feel anything, and to be honest I'd rather feel suicidally depressed than feel nothing. At least when I SI I have something on the outside for what goes on inside.
Maybe I don't want to get better because it will be a scary world out there. My closest friendships have formed with other people who I can talk to about depression etc, mostly because they have been through it themselves.
I am now in group therapy, and have a useless pdoc, and I couldn't discuss this with either of them. Is there a med that could make me want to be normal?!! I'd just feel like a self-indulgent fraud if I went back to therapy.
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