Posted by gardenergirl on December 8, 2004, at 23:07:14
In reply to Re: Feeling adrift.... so long happiness » gardenergirl, posted by Dinah on December 8, 2004, at 21:56:13
Dinah,
I guess I am glad to hear that this might be "normal" (hah! that word again!). I really can't recall feeling so disconnected. It was a new experience for me, which made it all the harder. I do wonder if it's not actually a sign that I am being more open to whatever I am feeling...more honest...I don't know. Actually, I had been struggling with the usual difficulty turning down the rational noise and just kind of sinking into the process. We talked about that some, how I still am not at ease right away, and of course the "sh" word (should) reared its ugly head about that. So maybe in trying to let myself go more, I connected with feeling adrift and how scary that is, whereas in the past I defended against it?Ack! There I go analyzing it again. I need an on/off switch for the frontal cortex. :)
I always want to think that what happens in therapy is good for me, though. I suppose I need to think about that kind of idealization as well. Shoot.
Rambling on
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