Posted by Bent on December 7, 2004, at 6:22:53
In reply to Re: six hours 'till therapy... » Bent, posted by Aphrodite on December 6, 2004, at 19:28:15
Well...I did read the whole thing, the entire four pages, typed no less. :) When ever I have something to say about how I feel about her I usually write it so she is used to that. And usually the sessions where I read something I am really nervous but then feel so much better afterwards - reassured and more comfortable with my T. This time wasnt like that. Its not that it went badly. My T welcomed all that I had to say, but I wanted her to say more. I didnt get that reassuring feeling. I think she has stopped being so reassuring because we are moving closer to termination and its like she expects me to be able to reassure myself now. So its not that it went badly, but i didnt feel good afterwards. I thought that i wished i hadnt read it. I just felt cheap, like it didnt matter to my T. I dont want to go back - that's how i feel right now. I cant help but wonder if maybe unconsciously perhaps, my motive in telling her these feelings was to elicit a reaction from her and then when I didnt get it I found it upsetting?? Shouldnt getting those feelings out in the open and seeing that she is accepting of them be enough? Maybe I am thinking too much.
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