Posted by saw on November 19, 2004, at 1:13:38
In reply to Sunny10, posted by Susan47 on November 18, 2004, at 19:34:10
I realise now that I sound like and ice cold, emotionless mom. I'm not. I actually share a truly beautiful relationship with my little boy. We must hug about 10 times a day. He is forever trying to kiss me. He LOVES playing with my hair and likes to go to sleep at night stroking it. For absolutely no reason, he will come up behind me, throw his arms around my waist, lay his head on my stomach and say "I will never stop loving you mom". He is just as affectionate with his mimi. (my mom). He never leaves for school or we never talk on the phone and never goes to sleep at night without me saying I love him. We colour in together, we sing together, I have taught him computer literacy and we do all sorts on the computer together. He reads his current school book to me every night.
So saying all of that, I guess I am just angry with myself for wanting to be left alone. That sometimes I am feeling hot, or bothered, or my head is just too loud and I feel smothered and claustrophobic if "hangs" on to me.
But I will take your advice Sunny, and seek help on the correct way to inform him of my illness. My husband may be against it, but I think the poor little guy will have a better understanding of why I can get so cross when all he did was bump his cup of tea over. And all the pills might make sense. Good grief, how many vitamins can one mom take?
Have I made sense?
I also do spend way to much time and energy on the fact that he may have inherited biological father's bad genes. But that's another issue.
Sabrina
(Parenting on psychology now too. Wish that parenting board could happen. Sigh)
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