Posted by saw on November 17, 2004, at 0:45:16
In reply to Might be a trigger it's about children, posted by Susan47 on November 16, 2004, at 21:18:57
I identify with this Susan. I love my son dearly. He is the most precious child and I don't deserve him. But I so often wish he would just leave me alone. I have found that my depression has made me very claustrophobic of his love for me and when he wants to hug me, I push him away. I constantly feel guilty about this but do not have the energy to deal with the guilt right now.
I cannot have anymore children by choice and after a day of grieving for what might have been with my new husband, I have never regretted my decision.
I wish I knew why I pushed the poor little thing away when I love him so much. Just doesn't make sense to me.
Sabrina
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