Posted by mair on November 16, 2004, at 21:07:31
In reply to Maybe it's the dolls, posted by Dinah on November 16, 2004, at 20:13:59
You have such a nice way of explaining things; as soon as I started reading your post I realize it's really what I've been struggling with lately.
I've had this real issue about not being able to mourn my recently deceased father and although we've spent alot of time in therapy since his death hashing and rehashing my relationship with him as a child I still haven't really been able to tap into what I used to feel for him. My T's reaction has been to "normalize" my non-reaction, which really hasn't been helpful. We've talked about things in much more depth in the last 2 sessions and she admitted today that she really didn't understand how big an issue it was for me that I simply don't think I feel things the way other people do, and it worries me alot. My Dad's not the issue; how I've reacted to his death is just emblematic.
What I really think I've been struggling with, and couldn't articulate as nicely as you, is that I need to feel as I used to feel. It's not a matter of remembering how I felt as a child; it's a need to experience those feelings again.
Thanks for helping me frame this.
Now unfortunately, I was never into Barbies or any dolls for that matter, so I can't use them to take me back. I can't really remember at all what I used to play - I think I spent alot of time outside; it's not quite the same.
Mair
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