Posted by Rigby on November 16, 2004, at 9:53:58
In reply to I did it. I fired her., posted by crushedout on November 15, 2004, at 19:23:18
Hi Crushed,
Wow--this is really good progress. It was a great idea to see someone else. And your note to her was great (maybe we should publish it a book of "Dear T" letters?? ;) )
Regarding not feeling much or not being as devastated as you would have anticipated, I think alot of what you've been doing over the past weeks and months has almost been like "pre-grieving"--you've cried and agonized alot--maybe that's where most of it was done. Anyway, that's just to say that maybe the worst of this storm has passed.
Anyway,I still haven't been back to my therapist either. 'Tis the season, eh?
Hugs,
Rigby
> I just did it in an email. I don't feel anything. I'm not crying. I feel pretty numb. I hope that wasn't too impulsive.
>
> It was right after my session with the new T and we sort of figured out this was probably what I wanted to do. It wasn't exactly final. Well, here is what I wrote:
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> "Hi [Ellen],
>
> "I've decided it's not a good idea for me to see you this week. I'm not sure what else to say. I don't really expect you to hold my appointments for me indefinitely, and at this point, I honestly think it's unlikely I will be coming back. Ideally, I would like to have more time to sort through things before making that decision, but I don't want to leave you hanging, so please do whatever you need to.
>
> "I thank you so much for everything you've given me over the past two and a half years. I hope I can, at some point, thank you more fully and share with you what has brought me to this point. I think you deserve an explanation. I just need to take care of myself right now and can't focus on offering you one. I'm sorry.
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> "All my best,
>
> [crushedout]"
>
> And then I just basically hit "send" and that was it. And then I wrote this post. And there you have it. It's done. I wish I knew what I was feeling. Is this going to hit me later?
>
> I have another appointment with the new T on Thursday.
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