Posted by antigua on October 21, 2004, at 9:03:41
In reply to Re: No need for sorry, posted by mair on October 21, 2004, at 8:16:43
but then I'm probably not in touch w/my feelings as you guys are.
Last year when I was all torn up over the way my CBT T had treated me (abandonment, bad therapy, little regard for me as a desperately hurting person and him not realizing,or even caring, for that matter)was the first time I ever developed a real plan. While I certainly spoke to my regular T about what was going on, I never considered any effect it might have had on her if I had followed through. She just wasn't part of the equation. If I made up my mind, it was my mind. Instead, I foolishly gave my "means of demise" to my CBT therapist, as if I presented him w/my "gifts" he would finally understand. He didn't.
Even now, as much as I love my T, I still feel alone in all of this; I don't consider her feelings at all. How sad is that? As far as I ever get is telling her how serious it is when I get that desparate. Maybe it's the ultimate wall between us. Maybe I should talk to her about it.
Sorry to sidetrack, but you guys always make me think.
antigua
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