Posted by Poet on October 20, 2004, at 12:26:24
In reply to It's raining, inside and out (trigger potential), posted by daisym on October 20, 2004, at 1:22:38
Hi Daisy,
I wrote my first suicide poem when I was 18; I wrote my obituary last May. I've never written a letter about reasons that I have to live.
Giving it some thought, I would start with people who like me even though I think I'm completely unlikeable. Friends. Even my therapist.
I don't think there are many people who need me, but your husband and kids need you. They wouldn't see the reasons that you don't want to live, they would see the reasons you should.
You seem very dedicated to your work. Add those people and the clients your agency serves.
So far you have friends (including babble,) your immediate family, your T, your coworkers.
All these people see a need for you and feel your love, kindless and concern for their wellfare. Keep adding to the list.
You aren't trapped as you were when you were a kid. I know it's tough for me to get that through my head when the darkness moves in and I see suicide as the only way out of it. Maybe in the letter you could write about why, as a kid, you felt suicide was the only option and what other options you see you have as an adult?
This might be easier for me, because I have poetry going back over 30 years. It's like a guide to my mental state. Though there are years where I wrote nothing. Hmm, what does that say?
Take care. Hope I helped.
(((Daisy))))
Poet
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