Posted by vwoolf on September 27, 2004, at 9:27:48
In reply to Re: To read or not to read, posted by shortelise on September 26, 2004, at 13:17:32
Yes, ShortE, I think I am trying to stay in control. But how will I ever know that what happens to me in therapy is normal if I don’t read about it somewhere, either in books or on babble. It’s not the sort of thing you can ask your friends about - at least, I can’t. I really thought I was not normal, that I was psychotic, with the transference. Now I can work with it, before I understood a little about it I was terrified. For example, last night I woke up feeling the utmost hatred towards my T. I got up and wrote out my thoughts towards her for over an hour. Looking back at what I wrote, I see that in my writing I threaten to kill her a couple of times. If I didn’t know that through this I was reliving my murderous feelings towards my mother because of her betrayal, I think I would be very worried today. Sometimes my feelings are just too powerful. I think I really need to intellectualize a bit.
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