Posted by daisym on September 25, 2004, at 23:21:14
In reply to Why might T have stopped physical contact? (long), posted by Skittles on September 25, 2004, at 20:00:44
I want to answer you in two parts because I think there are separate issues in this post. As far as your therapist touching you, since it bothers you, you probably should talk about it. There is truth in what you said about csa issues and no touching. But not because you are "untouchable" but more because it might raise issues for you. My best guess is that she touched your arm from habit or in a gesture of reassurance and she hasn't consciously not touched you since. Again, I'd ask.
But as far as your memories go, I want you to know that it is understandable to not want to know what really happened. You have to ask yourself what going into the past will do for you. If the memories are blocked, but pushing out in other ways, then figuring out what happened will probably be useful in understanding your behavior and reactions to things or people. It is a confusing and painful process so don't push yourself too hard. 2 and 2 are not always 4 when you are doing this work. It gets a little easier when you've had a few conversations about this. A little...it isn't ever really easy.
I'm sorry this is coming up for you.
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