Posted by Racer on September 24, 2004, at 20:09:59
In reply to Terrible confession, posted by alexis6 on September 24, 2004, at 19:50:27
Heavens! What a terrible thing to do! You must be the only person ever to do such a thing, how could you?
OK, now that I've gotten that out, shall I tell you a story to match it? I was giving my telephone number to a fellow I really, really wanted to go out with years back, who stuck it on the back of his drivers license -- right on the organ donor's card. We were standing with a male friend of mine at the time. This hunky guy said something about the hospital calling me if he was in an accident that night, and I replied -- without a thought in my head -- "Oh, do you have any organs I want?"
Took ages to recover, of course.
Then there are all the times I've left the perfect message for that agency from hell -- only to find myself so worked up that I start to run off at the mouth and ruin it all. Or when someone asks me about my drinking -- well, it's something I always worry about, for a lot of reasons, but the short answer is that I drink one or two glasses of wine on holidays with my family, and sometimes go out for a beer with friends. Machts nichts, I still spend half an hour trying to answer accurately, and just feel like a fool.
We all find ourselves saying things we don't mean to at times, and in this case you've got a perfect right to do so. Something traumatic happened to you, caused by the very bad judgement of someone in a position of trust in your life. If you had attacked him in some way in your message, or if you had begged him to take you back, those would be bad things. Saying that you're having a difficult time with closure, though, is true and is fine. Even saying that you had gotten the impression that he was gay is fine, as long as it's true.
Here is your Absolution from Racer. You have committed no sin, and may go forth without guilt.
poster:Racer
thread:394708
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20040918/msgs/394713.html