Posted by shrinking violet on September 10, 2004, at 11:25:39
In reply to not sure i can / should keep doing this, posted by shrinking violet on September 9, 2004, at 18:58:41
Replying to myself...a new low.
Well, it's a day later. Reading the valued responses has gotten me more emotional, for some reason. I really want to let my T know about all of this, but I'm afraid. And I just saw her yesterday, I don't want to bother her again already. I have this crazy urge to email her the link to my post, but....I can't risk her knowing about this place, because I would jeopardize my safety and ability to speak freely here in the future.
Last session she said she just started reading a new book: ""Changing Course: Healing from Loss, Abandonment, and Fear"" and she suggested I purchase a copy (which I did last night, lol) and read it with her. So maybe I should just sit on this issue and see if the book helps. If not, then I'll know we tried everything and I can bring up the issue of leaving early.
But why is it so hard to just "sit" with things? And I hate that I feel worse after a session than I do before one. :(
[Note: for some reason, the double quotes feature did not find a match, but I purchased the book at Amazon last night so I know it's there. Here's the direct link: http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/ASIN/1568387997/drbobsvirte00-20 ]
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