Posted by antigua on August 28, 2004, at 11:06:42
I don't know if I've already mentioned this or not, but my T moved her office over the summer (after 13 yrs of my therapy). We had a three-week break this summer and I went to her new office for the first time three weeks ago. So we have had three sessions in her new office.
I've discovered that I really am uncomfortable in this new setting and I'm very surprised by it. The first time was fine, but the last two were difficult.
The problem(s)? Well, first, I have to go through her house to get to her office. I've never been in the private part of her house before (her old office was separated off) and as much as I would have liked to know more about her, I really don't like seeing her personal life. That said, her house is exactly as I would have pictured it; it's very beautiful and tasteful. Why don't I like this? What's wrong here? I've known her for a long time and our personal lives have overlapped at times over the years so this isn't so unusual.
Second thing: Her new office is too small and our chairs are too far apart. I feel claustrophic and separated at the same time. This, I know, I can talk to her about. But the door is also close and all I want to do is flee.
Since this has kicked in, I had one clear thought float through my head the day before my last appointment: I don't need her anymore. Now, that's a warning sign if I've ever heard one.
Why do I want to run away from her? There isn't anything new going on in therapy; we have been working on difficult things for years and we do joke about me not wanting to come, but this is different.
Any ideas before I talk to her next week about this?
thanks,
antigua
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