Posted by corafree on August 24, 2004, at 23:56:15
In reply to Re: Borderline Personality Disorder, posted by alexandra_k on August 24, 2004, at 21:13:36
> DBT won't / can't turn you from a free spirit to whatever the opposite is (high doses of meds are more likely to knock that out of you). Linehan says that borderlines will always be the 'colourful' people of this world, and all the treatment in the world aint going to change that :-)
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> DBT isn't so bad. I don't think that it is part of the treatment approach to try to trigger you just because the therapist can, but then there are also rules: and turning up for treatment and not being late or missing sessions is one of those (the therapist can't help you if you don't go see them). So if you break a rule then this goes on the agenda as something that you have to discuss in the session because it is considered a 'therapy interfering behaviour'. You have to turn up and agree to work on the treatment hierarchy, but they are the only rules though so its not toooooo regimented.
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> I do understand your fear though. I was terrified when I started DBT. I got through a year of it though, and it did help me immensely (though not with some of the problems I have).. It sounds like you have put a lot of thought into what is the best treatment for you and you have decided that this is it and so now you need to start working with your therapist to help you figure out how to turn up so that your therapist can help you with the other stuff too.
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> Good luck with making your appointments, I hope it gets easier for ya.Tks. It's so odd that I am noncompliant w/ appt times, like I said. Something inside me is holding me back. I think I am doing it on purpose. For many yrs been almost unaware of my feelings. I just try to keep up w/ current moments. When my father died in Feb, I really lost myself. He was the one person who validated and always loved, no matter what I did. The rest of my family do not validate that I have a problem ... ya know, like someone else here said 'just snap out of it', and they think I am just trying to get attention. Does rapid cycling have anything to do with remembering, learning, etc.? I am forgetful, and intently listen to someone's directions, and as I walk away, I do not remember anything they said. I have had a lot of abuse by men. My family of origins' dismissing my illness, has made me feel guilty. I will try to remember that DBT should enable me to 'express', rather than what I do now; which is sit, smoke cigs, and THINK about 'expressing myself.' Besides my current overwhelming grief, I have a chronic c-spine injury which takes up a lot of my time, and after a TAH-BSO...I have problems that may require further surgery. Feel like I need a secretary. cf
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