Posted by AuntieMel on August 9, 2004, at 22:01:23
In reply to Smell the roses, w/purpose and gusto » AuntieMel, posted by 64bowtie on August 9, 2004, at 18:14:22
Aha! You've signed up for a tough one, me thinks.
Remember those care-free days I would like to have - not a repeat childhood, but the first one? There were secondary reasons I missed having one. The biggest is that I was a very, very bright kid (my dad made me get tested for mensa so he could brag to one of my aunts. I got in, but it kinda torqued him off when I beat him by 14 points). So, where I hated playing birthday party games, I could handle 3 dimensional abstracts. My memories aren't stored as feelings, either.
But, love wise, I do seem to be stuck in approval/disaproval mode. Maybe that's why I long for a belated childhood? It's like the rest of me skipped it - and didn't go through the emotional maturing that most people do.
But I do seek out new experiences when possible. I love to travel and I'm lucky that my job took me to places that I like to call 'places I'd have never *paid* to go see. I also love learning new things.
It's boredom that really drives me nuts. I'm at that awful state where I've achieved most of my goals (education, job, home and family, finance) and have none of that to work towards. What would make most people happy makes me down. I know I need a new goal, but can't think of anything that would involve me long term.
Careful here - you might be biting off more than you can chew coach;)
Mel
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