Posted by AuntieMel on July 27, 2004, at 14:12:59
In reply to Scared to be honest about something with T, posted by Racer on July 27, 2004, at 12:35:56
Aw, Racer. Don't be so hard on yourself.
If you didn't have trust issues before, the recent therapy experiences would causee them. And you've only been going a few weeks.
I don't know all the story with Dr. Candy, but I do remember that he had discussed you with people who had nothing to do with your care. And that he was downplaying your symptoms and blaming you for not getting better. Jeesh, that would bother anyone.
Suppose you had bleeding ulcers and a doctor gave you medicine fot it. And you noticed it wasn't helping, and you're still bleeding and it looks like it's increasing, not decreasing. And the doctor told you to be patient and give it time.
Would that be your fault?
And if that happened and everyone working in his clinic of quacks knew about it and looked at like there is something wrong with you, you would probably be torn between two things a) the self doubt of maybe he's right and b) mistrust of any treatment you get.
You posted quite often about this a little while back. Those messages showed the self doubt and the pain, but also had information as to why you were feeling it. Maybe you could print those out and take with you instead of writing something new.
The really important thing is that you have been in real pain over this for a long while. A good therapist should help you put it in perspective.
Good Luck.
poster:AuntieMel
thread:371208
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20040723/msgs/371245.html