Posted by Blossom on July 23, 2004, at 8:37:02
In reply to Re: Met T on the road--Update, posted by shortelise on July 23, 2004, at 2:41:19
Hey, thanks, Shorte.
You're right. I do need to express myself to him, but I have a hard time with it. At the end of our session he asked me if I was okay, and I said, "well, it hasn't been the most pleasant session." (Truth be told, though, it was a lot like a lot of recent sessions.) He asked if I was angry at him, and I said I was, but of course, we would have to wait until next time to talk about it.
One of my issues is control. Pretty typical for a person with an eating disorder, I guess. I don't like showing or expressing my feelings to him, because I feel like it gives him control over me that he can make me upset or angry. I don't want him to have that pleasure! And unlike a lot of you on this board, I certainly don't want to have any feelings for him because that makes me more vulnerable. I guess that's pretty messed up and if I'm going to get my money's worth out of these sessions, I'm gonna have to get past that stuff and open up a little anyway!
Blossom
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