Posted by partlycloudy on July 1, 2004, at 6:59:03
In reply to To: snapper, posted by shadows721 on July 1, 2004, at 2:07:53
WOW! Thanks for all your encouragement. I'll keep it brief.
This time we worked on confidence, pride, skills, sense of accomplishment. The way we got to it was, ummmm, via the memory of my dead cat Rascal. She was a mighty hunter, she only let me pet her, I knew all her secret spots around her ears that would induce rapture. She was my very best friend when I was a kid. When she died, my grief went on for what seemed like months. My heart was broken, she was so sweet and loving. I had never lost a companion before.
So we brought up an image of me and my cat having a "conversation". The message of which was that Rascal wants me to have the same pride and sense of accomplishment that she did in being a cat. Provider of dead mice, defender of her territory, unmarked by battle scars. She wants me to have that confidence that she had because she said I'm very good at being human, but I don't believe it.
So I am to incorporate this message into my daily meditation and rehearse going through my work day with pride, confidence, and accomplishment.
I had fleeting panic all the way here this morning. When I walked in the front door, a real feeling of peace stole through me, and I realized that I've never felt so relaxed in my job before.
So - not spectacular. It's making my work day ever so much more pleasant to have these thoughts with me today.
We also discussed the 1 or 2 T possibilities. I've decided to stay the course of EMDR with this therapist, which should be another 3 or 4 sessions, while continuing with my original T. At the end of the EMDR, I'll continue seeing my T for as long as we feel necessary. I'm very comfortable with that arrangement.
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