Posted by B2chica on June 29, 2004, at 9:41:42
In reply to Re: sick... » B2chica, posted by daisym on June 28, 2004, at 16:52:24
thank you DaisyM.
you are incredibly nice. you make me feel good. I feel like the numbness is taking over which is a good thing- the thoughts aren't constant as they were before. The sickness and anxiety are still here but...what do you do. Yesterday i printed off what i wrote and added a page and dropped it off at my T's place. I just can't seem to call no matter what i do, so at least this way he knows. I guess a part of me was hoping he'd call me but...like someone said before, he's not a mind reader and i didn't say in the letter i wanted him to call.
Even though i'm feeling pretty numb about the 'episode' it's like i have this constant fear. last night i curled up and just held my legs like if i let go they would fall off. I mean scared, constantly, why? my best guess is all these years i've been "covering" with a fearless attitude that maybe it's all catching up???
i mean no matter what i do i have this innate fear inside me (i think that's what's giving me this shaking).Daisy, thank you Very much for the hugs. I actually wish i could crawl in your arms and stay there till friday...
b2c.
> Hugs from me.
> Daisy
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