Posted by lifeworthliving on June 25, 2004, at 20:17:46
i don't respond or post much because i don't think i've got much to contribute. recently i've enjoyed the conversations re transference... it can be such a pita to deal with. i hate crying when she leaves town. i hate missing her. i feel like such an emotional retard at times. anyway, my beloved t is out of town again. i won't see her for ten whole lonely days of intense longing. i can think that this is ridiculous behavior but tell that to my broken heart! i didn't ask for her socks this time... i wanted something different: permission to drive by her house! she started laughing and said it was ok if it would make me feel better. i live just a few minutes from her but have managed to resist this temptation for two years. i didn't ever want to tell her that i did it (for some reason i'm a compulsive confessor in therapy). she also told me where she is going and gave me the phone number. also said she would check email IF she had the opportunity. she said twice i could call and that she would call back if i left a message. previously she has called me while away to check in. as much as i love her the calls felt too dorky. i don't imagine i will ever call her but knowing where to find her when she is gone makes me feel so much better. last time she apologized for not letting me know where i could find her. its the hardest part of her being gone: not knowing where to look if i need her?
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