Posted by bell_75 on June 10, 2004, at 19:37:05
In reply to Re: Therapeutic pressure, is it real? do u relate? » bell_75, posted by DaisyM on June 10, 2004, at 18:00:20
First Daisy, thanks for your reply :)
He has said to me awhile ago that he doesn't think I'm ready to terminate and that made me feel as though he had compassion to see that I was in a difficult time and also that he had given my case some thought.
Its a good point you made that it might be internal because I thought about this and I think some of the pressure maybe be coming from me because I want to "make him proud" and not frustrate him as you've experienced with your T.
I mentioned to my T in yesturday's session that I had done something that wasnt a safety behaviour in a situation that I was really anxious about and he literally got excited about this. He was really happy for me and I was surprised by this but nontheless felt good about it. This made me think 'does one good day mean I'm cured in his eyes?'. Maybe I'm being abit irrational and jumping to conclusions. Afterall, I can't read his mind.
He also mentioned that we should start having fortnightly sessions soon and we'll discuss that further in our next session. This gave me the picture that he's planning on weening me off. Sometimes we have really productive and neccessary sessions and other times it seems as though we're stuck on finding concrete things to talk about as though we're dealing with things I could probably deal with on my own.
I also think maybe, like you mentioned, that progress is an overall thing not on a weekly basis. Some weeks are good and some weeks not so and I feel as though on the good weeks he's picturing me as being good from every week on.
Blah! Its brain straining to think about.
Thanks for the advice. I will bring it up tactfully in our next session because its been playing on my mind. I've got a week to think of what I'm going to say lets just hope i say it when the time comes.~Bell
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