Posted by bell_75 on June 10, 2004, at 7:55:09
In my therapy session today my T spoke about how therapy is not forever and our sessions will have to come to an end someday. Now, he's mentioned this before and I've acknowledged to him that I know this and have implied that when the time comes I will accept it.
However, I feel as though there's pressure from him for me to be progressing quicker than I am, as though he believes I've overcomed issues with depression and social anxiety alot better than I have.
I can give myself praise when I make positive steps in my recovery stage and I've noticed how much therapy has changed me but I feel there's pressure to move forward.
He's not outrightly pressuring me and is a very understanding T I guess thats why I pose the question, is this pressure real? Could I just be anxious about termination therefore having less confidence about my "readiness" to do so?
I was just wondering if anyone here has found themselves in this situation where they're feeling pressure from their therapist to be making progress.
I worry that I'm somewhat of a failure in therapy when we work hard and I work extra hard at my homework assignments and I'm still so writhed with what it is we're working on.
My T reassures me that he'll tell me the truth about what he's thinking if I ask and will answer my questions honestly. I believe him on this too. But I don't yet want to approach him on this subject because I feel that if I mentioned this after he talked about termination it would seem like I'm clutching at straws to hold onto our therapeutic relationship even if I have the skills to live without it. As though I'm staying out of seperation anxiety rather than a need for therapy. I've been in therapy for 13 months now. Its a free clinic setting and I feel this denies them any obligation to give more time. I understand the waiting list and demand are high also.
I feel this is something I want to talk to babblers about first and see if this feeling of pressure (inadvertly or direct) has been felt by them coming from their therapist.
Thank you in advance fellow babblers.
Kudos!
~Bell
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